DG National Report: Minneapolis/St. Paul by Laurie Flanigan Hegge
@dramatistsguild @LaurieFlanigan
This month’s report features two fierce Twin Cities artists who faced cancer head-on, onstage, in pieces they wrote and performed: Ball: A Musical Tribute To My Lost Testicle by Max Wojtanowicz (with original music by Andrew Cooke, Michael Gruber and Jason Hansen) and Final Round, written and performed by Katie Ka Vang. Let’s get right to it.
Laurie Flanigan Hegge: At what point did you decide to write about your cancer diagnosis?
Max Wojtanowicz: The idea to write the show came out of a conversation I had with Nikki Swoboda (my director and co-founder of The Catalysts) early in my diagnosis about how to process what was happening. I wasn’t convinced that it was a good idea at first; I wasn’t sure if I would be out of the woods or have enough hindsight when the time came to perform it. But I had already planned a solo cabaret, and once I put that together, it felt like a reachable goal to add storytelling to the cabaret setup.
Katie Ka Vang: As a theatre artist I knew I was going to create a show borrowing from this experience, much like I do with the rest of my work, I just didn’t know what it would look like or when I’d do it. It helps that my style of solo work comes from an extremely autobiographical aesthetic—literally, on stage I play Katie Ka Vang. It’s important to me that my solo work reflects my truth. It’s my way of contributing to a larger social justice movement. Change starts from within and at home first. I make work to get closer to myself and understand the histrionics of the culture(s) I was born into. I believe once one is self-aware, only then can one genuinely contribute to social change.
LFH: What was your writing process like and how did it impact your healing?
KKV: I’m actually still healing, but it forced me to carve out time to just be, to learn to let go of things that don’t serve me anymore, and be aware of habits that were harming me. It gave me something to look forward to, like I was going somewhere and being purposeful, which is extremely helpful in combating depression (a thing transplant patients go through). I had an allogeneic Bone Marrow Transplant (BMT) (actually my second BMT). During the transplant process you are admitted into the hospital for at least two weeks, and during this time they prime your body by giving you high doses of chemo and immunosuppressant pills—they basically take your body levels down as close as they can to mortality without actually killing you—and then they give you some new cells and wait for them to engraft. When they send you home you are in quarantine. I had to stay away from anything that could give me an infection, because my immune system was extremely compromised. And so I wasn’t allowed to go anywhere for 100 days, except to my daily clinic visits, for blood work. When I started to meet with my director, Zaraawar Mistry, I hadn’t yet hit my post-100 days milestone, so we started rehearsals over FaceTime. We had the attitude that we didn’t know what was going to happen, or how my health would be in three months, so we’d just take it day-by-day, and that’s how we created. It’s quite freeing working in this way. It was the most easygoing process thus far in all of my history in making theatre.
MW: I was free-writing during treatment, and updating my Caring Bridge journal, so I had that to draw from once I started writing in earnest after treatments were over. By the time I finished chemo and started structuring the show and filling in gaps, it had written some of itself. Writing the words down and saying them aloud, especially admitting my darkest fears and embarrassments, was incredibly therapeutic. That’s actually a part of the takeaway of my show, I hope: we are confronted with huge, scary challenges in our lives, and there is a medium through which to process them. That medium for every person is different; mine is this show. I’m a big sharer—my first musical [Fruit Fly]was about my coming out journey and the parallel lives of my straight best friend and I—so for me, that worked. It felt like I had an obligation to say things out loud so an audience could hear them. Nobody wants to talk about cancer, but we do want to talk about how to heal and how to move forward.
KKV: I have no issues being publicly vulnerable or sharing the details of my experience with cancer. (That may be because I was schooled by Laurie Carlos, whom we also recently lost to cancer.) But from the very beginning I was vocal about it, and have been extremely blessed by a whole theatre/art community having my back. I feel like every culture has their own beliefs about illness. In some Asian cultures, serious illnesses and diseases still carry a stigma, so when I created Final Round I was hoping it would open a dialogue around these issues in my community. And it did. I’ve already seen projects from several Hmong artists using my concept of art as a tool to dismantle and talk about stigmas, and it’s flattering.
LFH: What did you find empowering?
KKV: I got funding from the Knight Arts Challenge and Jerome Foundation. The work would’ve still happened, but I was able to pay myself, and my team, to create art, and getting paid to make art is empowering.
MW: Creating Ball was a great reminder for me of the power of telling your own story, of opening yourself up to an audience. I made a connection to my father’s cancer journey—he had terminal cancer with no chance of survival. I had a type of cancer where I was already in remission five months after diagnosis. I make a point in the show that I didn’t like it when people would use the word “brave” describing me, because my dad had so little chance of hope and still had to walk around and live for three years. That’s bravery. I was glad to make a connection with him, and to find courage and strength in his journey.
LFH: What did it feel like to perform with your cancer journey still unfolding?
MW: It was bizarre! My hair was starting to grow back, but it was still pretty short, and you can still see my portacath scar, which I showed the audience. I’ll be curious to see how audiences respond as I go forward with the show, the further away I get from it.
KKV: It was a balancing act—literally—because my health wasn’t fully up to par. But I’m learning that life in general is just that—a big balancing act.
LFH: What made you laugh?
KKV: I love playing different characters, and in Final Round there’s a character who’s of an older generation but has horrible manners, based on my mom’s friend. I had a great time playing her.
MW: I brought a gentleman up on stage with me every night for a seduction song (pretending he’s my boyfriend). I sang about how grateful I am that he stood by and supported me, turned on by my surgical scars while I pole-danced around the IV.
LFH: Did anything anger you?
KKV: Nothing angered me, because anger comes from fear, and whenever I was scared I expressed it through tears. I got acquainted with fear very quickly and told it that it can be a part of this caravan, but it ain’t driving or sitting shotgun.
MW: The only thing that kept me up at night was making sure my ending played well, when I talked about my dad. I knew my family would be in the audience, and I was afraid that bringing him up would seem exploitative to them. So I spent a lot of energy fretting about that, but ultimately I found a way to honor him and gain perspective from his life.
LFH: How was it received?
MW: I got many letters from people who were going through cancer or who knew someone who was (that’s just about everybody, right?). One particularly meaningful letter was from a friend of mine who had lost both parents to cancer as a teenager. She admitted she was hesitant to see the show because she assumed it would be another cancer narrative that lifted up the “strong” people who survived and forgot about the “weak” people who lost their battles. She was surprised and gratified by the connection with my dad—that I could pull strength from my dad’s ultimate failure to beat his cancer—and she said that was very meaningful to her. I also performed the show once for a family who told me after the show that they had lost their mother that afternoon to cancer. “Now when we think about today, it won’t be all bad memories,” they said. I lost it.
KKV: It was received extremely well. One of the perks of performing in a smaller theatre is that you get to talk to everyone in the audience and exchange stories, whether they be about healing, grieving, or thriving.
LFH: What’s next for you?
KKV: There is a part two to Final Round, and it’s a performance installation based on the 100 days post-transplant protocol. I’m hoping to premiere it in the summer. And with this piece, I’ll be working with an ensemble.
MW: I was awarded an Artists Initiative grant through the Minnesota State Arts Board to create a musical for young people based on a Chilean folktale. I’m currently hard at work on that with composer Michael Gruber and director Nikki Swoboda. Ball has toured around the State of Minnesota. We’re hoping to bring it to oncologists’ conferences, since many doctors who have seen the show have commented that they thought it could serve as an educational tool about the doctor-patient relationship and a study in patient empathy.
You may have seen Katie’s testimony from the DG Fund’s end-of-year appeal about how an emergency grant from helped her during her transplant period. If you have the means, consider supporting the Fund. And last but not least, if you’ve got balls, Max reminds you to fondle them.
lflaniganhegge@dramatistsguild.com

Katie
Ka Vang in
Final Round

Max
Wojtanowicz in Musical Tribute To My Lost Testicle















